While I may have my last phone conversation, I still, to this day, feel like my dad hasn't left my side...I know he is watching over us and beaming with pride that we've not only survived but didn't throw out everything he collected from the Christmas Tree Shop :) He visits me in my dreams and I can feel his love all around me. It's just as e.e. Cummings wrote:
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;
I still find the event so impossible to comprehend; however, I'm comforted by all of the wonderful memories I shared with my dad and the peace of mind that he died doing something he loved. While the experience of losing a parent is traumatic, I have learned more about myself and what I'm capable of handling and overcoming, but even more so, I understand what it means to live in the present. This alone is a gift that I can't thank my dad enough for. I have learned how to overcome grief, be strong-willed, and confident in my decisions, not to mention the thousands of rules, nuances, and laws of estates/trusts I've learned along the way :) As a person who looks at the world with a glass half full perspective, I can't help but think I have gained invaluable knowledge and insight that I hope I can continue to share with others.
In reflecting on the past five years, I couldn't be more overwhelmed by the outpouring of love and support from all of our family and friends. Josh and I are so thankful for your kindness and concern and wouldn't be where we are today without you.
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